Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Fearless Now

"The young know how truly difficult and dreadful youth can be. Their youth is wasted on everyone else, that's the horror. The young have no authority, no respect" ~ Anne Rice

"You fool! Why did you lend your maths exercise book to your friend just two weeks before the exam? How are you going to study? I'll ground you for a month if you don't fetch full marks in the exam!", and so with this ultimatum ended the reprimand of Joy's mom.

Not that his life would be much different if he gets grounded, it was just this fear of non-compliance with his mother's wishes out of which Joy studied the rest of the next day, after getting his exercise book back. It may seem a bit pensive but Joy had adjusted himself to that routine of forever-groundedness. Getting up early morning and studying, going to school after breakfast, coming back from school in the evening, and again studying after some light snack made by his mom, then dinner and then sleep. He followed his mother's instructions to the letter. Neither his father, any other member of his family nor did the tender little heart of this 9-year old boy had any say in his mother's regiment, which was carefully designed to take him to the top in his career.

Joy never retorted nor felt bad for himself, he just accepted and went along. His mom was greatly successful in her mission. Her son was the topper in all the subjects throughout his junior-school life and even in class X board examination. And even at 16 , a crucial stage of youth, when youngsters go astray in the worst possible way, Joy was the same shy, obedient kid that he was 7 years ago. He was polite and helpful (to a scope that his mom allowed him to be).

Class XII's board exam was approaching and the students were getting serious with studies. Joy's mom had pre-planned his career. He would have to top the boards and then get in one of the leading engineering colleges in the country. One day, while Joy was waiting at the bus stop to return home from school, an old lady got robbed in front of Joy, he tried to catch the thief but his mother's regiment, though had taken care of his mental agility, had completely atrophied his physical abilities, hence he could not retrieve the lady's purse. He instead gave his bus fare to the lady so she could reach home and he decided to walk back home. It took him 30 minutes longer than the usual, but it took his mom the rest of the evening and night to scold him. But this time he felt a sudden snap in him, similar to the crack in the wood caused by a screw that has reached its limit of being twisted. For the first time he felt rage, all the childhood discipline reaching a volcanic culmination. Is life all about discipline and success? Is there no room for sloppiness? Is humanity a sin? Are all the lessons of philosophy and ethics meaingless? He could not sleep.

The next morning he woke up at 9 am instead of his scheduled 5 am. He did not study till the evening, watched TV, in short did all the things against his mother's wishes. His mom scolded him, threatened to through him out of the house, slapped him. He did not listen. From then onwards he had made sure to NOT to follow his mom's wishes. Though he topped the board examinations. But he managed to sabotage his competitive exams by either submitting blank papers or going to movies instead of the exam venue.

His mother was devastated, her perfect little boy had so skillfully managed to ruin his life despite her life long dedication. At the requests of relatives, and teachers he agreed to study BSc in a top notch local college , the admission had come by default due to his scintillating academic history. You can find him out of the class through-out the day, hanging out with the worst company.

6 comments:

  1. First of all , Nivi its a fabolus writing . Thanks for that .

    I tried to potray Joy and i found him a normal human being . Only thing is Joy is trying to be a rebel whereas i would like to see him as a revolutionary. By defying the rules , he is just going for the path of vengence but I dont think thats correct. He is correct in his thoughts and ways as "If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed." . He dont need to bound himself in someone's adivise . He need to come out that rebel mode and do whatever he wants , rather than wasting his talent he need to listen his inner voice . He needs someone to listen him, not to give him advises or orders or suggestions but just to let him split his bleeding mind. He needs someone to care for him, he needs someone to give him total freedom of being himself. By doing all this, he is losing others and soon himself too and then it will be damn difficult for him to pull himself out of the abyss of the depresssions(Deep-ressions) . He needs to go out alone , quit the company he is following (if its worst as i am pretty confused on this word 'worst' as if it means company of feckless freaks or the company of notorious fellows because those who are notorious may not be worst and those who are famous may not be best) .

    Other way round is : give joy my mobile number , i will talk with him once to peep into his soul and i know he will be alright them :-)

    Silence Prevails,
    Aditya Deadpan

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  2. This is for the JOY :

    "If you shoot for the stars & hit the moon, it's OK. But you've got to shoot for something. A lot of people don't even shoot." -Confucius

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  3. worst means notorious carefree guys, look from Joy's mother's... I surely will give the number if I myself have it ;)

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  4. Joy , if you are listening me , then do read Johnathan seagull and then you will come to know the power within us . How a seagull which was outcasted for his curority to fly high , how it managed to gain the excellence in his desires .. I am sure you can also fly like Johnathan and one day I will meet you in the far off lands . Best of luck for your journey within , remember implosions make more impact than explosions.

    Silence Prevails,
    Aditya Deadpan

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  5. since this blog is about honest opinions, i would like to point out that...this passage has a very confusing message..India cannot afford to have "3 idiots" type stories being experimented in the masses...that will lead to a total catastrophe..if u ask every one to be a maverick...9 out of 10 will turn out to be useless goons and what not....( though one of them may be exceptionally smart and brilliant)...i know...i sound like an orthodox person, but this is what reality is...a developing economy doesn't have these privileges beyond certain modest limits...am just expressing my opinion...no intention to personally offend anyone..thx...

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  6. Sheetal : I agree with you . Whatever you have talked is filled with naked truth and the live example is goon me ;-) . So I ma thinking that we should really start an online portal where we list all humans we will eradicate from this world .

    बातों को बातें ही रहने दो, उसे जज्बातों से न जोड़ों , कि दिल टूटा हुआ भी धड़केगा, उसे हर मोड़ो पर न तोड़ों !!

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